Charmaine

2/9/2011

My Defining Moment

Today has once again been a slight struggle to let go of whatever it is that blocks my mind from being free to think to work and simply be, in peace. Do you ever have those days, when your not sure what it is, but something is making you feel like it all may be a bit much? Make you think your not enough.

Could be my own insecurities. Could be my own fears. Maybe other “powers that be” are in on it. Or maybe all of these put together.

It’s only been in my sleep that I’ve been able to escape my thoughts. Even then they seep into my dreams and on occasion I’m playing out my shortcomings in a vivid movie-like, sad dream.

Where this short insight into myself turns for the good, is here.

My shortcomings are my made up illusion, of myself.

You see i believe (in-spite of what i feel) that because Love Himself is in the equation of my entire life, it changes everything.

So, It’s irrelevant what i am or what I’m not.

Crazy isn’t it? How is it possible, you say? Well…It’s a simple matter of trust. One that i am still learning, painfully.

He IS my defining moment.

He is all that He says He is. So, I’ll simply brush these fears in my head away. Trusting that He IS bigger. I’ll stop trying to change my shortcoming’s, trusting that in my weakness He IS strong.

I’ll release the things about me. You. The world. My music, my friends, my family, my heart, my crazy habits, my failures, my career, my lack of knowing the future, my…everything.

He IS able.