Charmaine

I love holidays!

LOVE them!

I was in Florida a few months back, spending a week with a family I have known for years. Of course I did my packing at the last minute and ended staying up the whole night watching the shows: "Lie to Me" and "Bones".  I slept on the flight over to Florida and had lots of coffee to keep my mind somewhat functional!  I pity the guy that ends up with me.  He will need to deal with a girl who is still a girl: wanting to watch shows at all hours of the night in spite of having to be somewhat responsible the next day. I still wait until the last minute to go to the bathroom. I know. I'm a child. I even have a 'potty dance.’

Well what can I say? I kind of like the fact that I have a 'kid' mentality. My managers may want to wring my neck sometimes. Any type A personality would want to!

I do find it interesting that to enter the Kingdom of Heaven you have to be like a child. No, not the staying-up-late-eating-junk-food kind of kid, watching Fringe and wanting so much to be like Agent Denom (although, I have been known to do that with my best bud Amy H).

The Kingdom seems to be less about irresponsibility and more of a complete and utter dependency.

If you watch children and how they function even in infancy, you'll find that every movement, every step cannot be done without a constant overall help of a parent or caretaker. Their very existence is absolutely dependent on someone else's grace and love. If a child is raised in a good environment, you will find a happy child who’s sole purpose is to play and learn to love.

 Some of the most amazing thoughts and ideas come from the imagination of children. They don't think of how much money it'll cost or whose toes they'll step on. They are not really worried about who's listening nor do they care.  In the mind of a child it's simple black and white with no worries because most of the realities and practicalities of life are taken care of.

  What if we were never meant to leave that state of mind? Or should I say, state of trust?

 I'm home now. Holidays in the sun are over. The realities of "making ends meet" are back, and I'm again tempted to become an adult or, maybe this time, be a child of a father who knows what I 'really' need. You see, I often give my earnest suggestions of what I think I need, such as:  "Please God open the doors for more opportunity for every aspect in my life.” But I wonder now if God is more interested in saving me from this adult mentality (complete independence) rather than giving me a financial/emotional/material stability? Maybe He is more interested in saving me.